it's a blog eat blog world

I'm feeling quite stoned now... I got horrible grades... But thats not the point...

The point is that there's lots of things i should do to better my life. But none of them are things i like to do. And although i try, i always end up not doing them after a week of it.

Time to look into the future... Think of my destiny... Pass GP...

Remember i said i have this insatiable drive to blog? I take it back. Ha. I'm fickle, what can i say?

I need someone to console me. Pat me on the back, give me a hug. Tell me i rock once in a while. Say i'm already as perfect as i can be.

But even if they do tell me that, i'll not believe them. EVER.

Cos i know i suck.

Awwwww... Its the low-esteem side emerging again after a hiatus for so long... I've not felt this way since last year when i was in that class... argh crap.

I'm just rambling away... Dun mind me. I realise that this two years of my life will be coming to an end sooner than i think.

People, faces, places and experiences... Gone.

Remembered as a vague sort of glow in the past. A short but joyous past. But at the same time, one of anguish enough to make me stay at the playground crying till 1am.

I am weak yet strong. I am confident yet i'm shy. I'm happy yet filled with sorrow.

I am what i am. I am me.

No one feels what i feel. Sees what i see. Knows what i have learnt. I have nothing, yet i have no need for anything. Dying is release, yet the act is one of cowardice and stupidity. But to suffer is stupid. Yet everyone suffers.

So is everyone stupid? Or is it just me?