it's a blog eat blog world

Right... Havent been blogging for like 5 days? I know my frequent blog readers will find that nothing new, cuz i'm prone to having periods of being blog-bored. But this time, its different... There's a reason for all this inactivity in my blog... I wasn't home since Saturday, and Friday night proved to be too traumatic to sit in front of my com anyway... And because of this, i had to cancel on a few groups of ppl, which i really didn't mean to... These past 5 days have been emotionally draining and physically tiring for me... And not to mention the rest of my family, extended included...

My ah-kong passed away on Friday nite.

Only you people here reading this would know that... And i shan't go into details. All i will say is that our family has gone into funeral mode with much tears and prayers (My grandparents are Christians) and that my grandfather looked peaceful lying there... Our family bonded within the 5 days there and our ties are strenghtened.. Lucky me, to have such a close knit family for times of trauma and drama like these. I thank lord. I also wish that my grandfather has found peace and has gone on to a better place. One in which he can walk and talk and laugh like everyone else... And one more wish is for my grandmother, in the hope that she will move on with life...

I'm not a christian myself, and i doubt i will ever be one, seeing that i'm too lazy to even go to a police post to change my address in my ic, but i've been to churches and i have really enjoyed the masses or services, whatever you call it, there. Another thing is that out of all the times i've been to church (and i've been to a few, City Harvest, Christ Methodist Church and another church somewhere ulu, cant remember the name), i've never failed to be moved by what i feel and see in these services... Yes, i cry. For what reason i'm not quite sure. Maybe its because of the feeling of unity in singing hymns or the overpowering sense of faith and love of God. I'm seriously baffled by my lack of control of my tear ducts...

Anyway, to something more lighthearted, my mom suspects i have a girlfriend and now she's grilling me and telling me to bring 'her' home for dinner or something... Worst thing is that she told my dad and now i'm jumpy whenever they talk to me.. Its not that i dun have a clear conscience, but i just dun like talks of this sort... Haha... Get what i mean?